26.10.12






SEEKING FAITHFULNESS OVER FEELING.

Look at our culture. It's all about 'me'. It's all about feelings; About comfort, convenience. 'What can I get out of this?' 'What's in it for me?'. Bumper stickers reading ' It's all about me' flood the freeways, billboards with self-worship slogans are lining the city streets. 

Whether it's the beginning of a new job, the early stages of a romantic relationship, or anything, really, in the early and exciting chapter of a fresh start... If things are exciting and new, things are great.

But what about the mundane? What about the seemingly boring day to day living that all of us must endure? Each moment can't possibly be exciting. Life can't possibly be about what feels good, what looks good, what serves me better...

The same can be said for a relationship with God. He's God. He's big. He's able to do all things -- anything. He's the Creator of the entire Universe, and yet He chooses to love me. That's a big deal. The beginning of a relationship with the Lord is filled with new experiences. An encounter with Him is almost otherworldly. It's like nothing else on the face of this Earth and it's the most exciting thing there is.

But like anything in life, there's the moment when the fireworks stop.  When, even just for a time or a season, the warm-fuzzies go away, the feeling of amazement, the butterflies, the emotion, the mountainous high, it fades.

When there's silence, stillness, when there aren't any goosebumps or tears involved in worshipping, when there isn't the desire or impulse to get up and dance, when there's no jittery shakes or warm tingling down the spine. When there's no miraculous healings, or shouts for joy, are we still faithful to worship? When, instead of feeling happy, content, blessed, encouraged, we feel dead, tired, discouraged...when it seems more like sacrifice then revival, when it seems more like work than a life-giving, life-altering encounter with the living God... are we still faithful to proclaim His goodness and His glory? 

...not because we feel like He's worthy, but because He simply is. Forever. 

I'm not saying a relationship with the Lord is the same as a marriage relationship, but it can often be used to paint a picture of the phases of love.

I'm unmarried, but I am blessed to be surrounded by marriages that are healthy, aged in wisdom and grace, and speak faithfulness to a world and culture that promote otherwise. Through conversation and observation, I have learned that love is more about action than anything else. It's not about how it feels. The "fireworks" of a relationship are the perks, not the foundation. The happy feelings, the excitement, the passion, there's plenty of those things dappled in a forever relationship. But they aren't there everyday.

The same is with the Lord. It's about action. It's about a foundation of faithfulness. We love Him because He first loved us, and demonstrates to us ,the unwavering, solidity of character, principle, pursuit.

Are we willing to surrender our hearts and say Lord, you are worthy of all my praise, you are worthy of all corners of my life, it's not about me, it's about YOU, even when the feelings aren't there?

Sometimes, we need to tell our feelings where to go...
Like David did.

Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise him again--my Savior and my God.

Psalm 42:5




It's okay to be honest about where we're at. Feelings are legitimate things given to us for a reason. But like anything, they can be overpowering, and need to be put into perspective. This is something I struggle to do, but I am learning a bit more everyday.

He is worthy because He is worthy because He is worthy. Our feelings are petty and ever-changing but  the truth of who God is never fails.

15.10.12

Poetry


"...Then the day we lie down

that painter again strokes a fresh green meadow
he says that's a cool and comfortable bed
and every morning
he adds innumerable fragrant blossoms
as we start to forget to breathe little by little."
Tu Ke Tuong

"I will take the sun in my mouth
and leap into the ripe air
Alive
with closed eyes
to dash against darkness "
E.E. Cummings, "I Will Wade Out"

"Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)"
E.E. Cummings, "I Carry Your Heart"






14.10.12

A Life of Thanks

In a world and specifically a culture of instant gratification, of comfort, and of convenience, we've become extremely demanding and full of complaint at any particular  moment things don't go our way. When things get hard, it's easy to forget the blessings, to look past the richness, the beauty, the abundance. I know that personally, I get tunnel vision and tend to only see what's right before me... and if it's not good, then it feels like life just sucks. But the truth is, life doesn't suck. Life is great. God is faithful, and I have uncountable and abounding things to be thankful for. Sometimes, in the hard times, it just takes some reminding.
I recently read a book called 1000 gifts -- an experimental and BEAUTIFUL book examining the ways that the heart needs reminding, that giving thanks is a lifestyle, that being thankful changes our hearts, brings healing, brings joy, brings hope.. Over the span of the book, the writer wrote down, everyday, a few things that she was thankful for. Even the littlest things, because those are often what bring happiness, and unfortunately they are the first to be overlooked.
Whenever I meet someone who smiles not because life is easy but because there are innumerable reasons to be grateful, I remember those people. I admire those people. And I desire to be that way.

I know that I'm often saying I'm going to do this or that, and I'm starting a new project, or travelling to some place interesting... and it rarely ever comes to pass... I  would like to try THIS. Writing down, consistently every day, a few things that I'm thankful for. And when I have the impulse to complain or to fret over something seemingly hopeless or horrible, GIVE THANKS instead. I desire to be present -- awake -- in every moment, to see the things that I would normally dismiss as insignificant. I want to take a deeper look at the tiny moments, the little things that add up into great things. And hold loosely all the stresses that the world offers.

So for today, I will give thanks for:
A church community that not only LOVES God, but LIKES Him, and gets excited about Him!
The smell of rain
A hug at just the right moment
A job that I love

More to come,

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Preservation.



13.10.12

Sleepless.


“Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. "  Matthew 11 : 28 

10.10.12

Leather Wallet



Just made this! It's genuine leather, recycled material! I was so excited when I finished it. It didn't take long, but a successful sewing experience after a long period of not sewing is always exciting and encouraging ! I'll be making more for my etsy shop!

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